I am re-posting this entry from a few years ago when I was afraid but ready to go forward inspire of my fear. I was about to travel to the Gabriola Theatre Festival to perform my solo show and I was struggling with debilitating stage fright and anxiety.
“The truth is that our finest moments are most likely to occur
when we are feeling deeply uncomfortable, unhappy, or unfulfilled.
For it is only in such moments, propelled by our discomfort,
that we are likely to step out of our ruts and start searching for
different ways or truer answers.” M.SCOTT PECK
“I need to step out of my rut. I need to search for different ways
and truer answers. I need to be fearless,
My old arch enemy- tStage Fright has reared it’s ugly head and is taunting me and leaping out at me when I least expect it. My mission is to transform my Fear into Courage and vanquish my enemy for another day. I accept the Mission. My method Love. My super power. Gratitude.These are the magical alchemical tools that will turn the base metal of negative emotion into golden light and give me the super power I need. I will fly, soar, and float through the sky powered by the golden light of love even though I am terrified.
Please forgive this flowery language.
I remind myself how much I really want and need to do my play.
I remind myself how grateful I am to have the opportunity.
I created my script with love and really hard work and commitment
and passion. I remind myself of the diligent writing process-
and my willingness to keep going when it seemed as if
I couldn’t bring all the elements together and I wanted to quit.
I am grateful to the audience who have bought all the tickets.
I am grateful to the festival that invited me to perform.
I am grateful for the opportunities I have to make art and share it.
I am grateful to special friends that generously supported me.