In 2008, I made myself a promise to create something every day for 100 days and post it online. I posted art, poetry, stories, thoughts, and dreams. It was my 100 day blog. I was really new to the internet. Back then there was a platform called LiveJournal and I posted something every single day except when I couldn’t –and then I would start over at Day One. Eventually my hundred day blog became about 200 days of posting art and writing and poetry. I got a lot done. I made friends with a whole lot of like minded souls, all over the world, and we shared our personal journeys and our writing and our paintings.
To be honest, I think it might have saved my life. I had been cycling in and out of clinical depression for years and although I was continually making art none of it was going out into the world. It was liberating to be able to show my art to whoever found me randomly surfing the web. I ended up up making art friends all over the world. It was a bit of a miracle to be honest.
Anyway this adventure led me to not only connect with painters but also to finish writing a play and performing that play in the Fringe Festival in 2011, as a solo show-despite unbelievable -heart-stopping stage-fright.
So now it’s ten years later and though the Dogs of Depression continue to nip at my heels, I have consistently found ways to keep going even if my pants are torn in the process. The goal is always to face my towering fears, come out the darkness and be seen in the light. I have accomplished quite a bit.I have directed a few pick of the Fringe Plays, and this past November 2018, I was in New York where a show I was privileged to direct starring the wonderful Beverley Elliott, won Best Musical in The United Solo Festival. How great is that? If you only knew how ten years ago this would have been impossible to imagine. Of course, painting is the key. Painting is the passion. Painting is the north star that leads me home.
Now I don’t even know if blogging is still a thing. With Instagram and Twitter and other social media platforms, people document their every though and opinion and–meal, so with everybody expressing themselves that way I am not sure the slow process of an online journal is very popular. Never the less I continue to come here every once in a while and share somethings I have been thinking about.So here’s to art and creativity and the willingness to face self-doubt and fear.
Here’s to a willingness to be seen.
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