I am what they call a multi-passionate artist, apparently.
I divide my time between theatre making and art making.
Some people have suggested that I lack focus.
But I am hyper-focused actually.
I just like to switch my focus from time to time.
I have been told that I will never get anywhere if
I don’t focus on one thing and dedicate myself to it.
But I think I am an incurable case.
Trying to focus on one kind of thing at a time is totally possible-
but for me not the way I roll.
Besides, one thing helps me with another.
I will paint–and suddenly a door opens in my brain, to reveal something,
I couldn’t see about a scene in my play where I was stuck and lost in the world of words..
Painting is my meditation and it’s also my research.
It’s my journey to the part of myself that I think is called soul.
It’s a way that I connect with my creative source, my energy,
my power supply. Painting teaches me to slow down.
So painting is my cure.
But painting teaches me about writing because I think
writing is a bit like working with your mind as if you could reach in
and move things around with your hands.
You have to get hold of an idea and work it. Play with it. Roll it out.
It’s physical and visual to me.
When I draw and paint, I understand more of how to write and direct-
because it opens the part of my mind that lets me see more.
I have to spend a lot of time observing deeply and patiently–
for all the ways I make art.
My painting practice trains my eyes to see better–to see more.
My writing keeps me in the world of the concrete and the physical
which helps me direct.
When I paint, I understand that observation and patience,
and slowing down is necessary.
So today I am reminding myself that patience
is required to get this impossible scene in my play to work.
Did I mention that right now I am focused on writing a play.
Yes focused. For now.
As someone who wants to do everything
and learn everything
and read everything
and be everything–
and know everything–
I am learning to do less, to expect less
but accomplish more.
I am learning to be less pressured less anxious-less demanding of myself.
And this is a good thing and I learned it from painting.