A New Year Wish for some who are not so happy today.


“Face your life, its pain, its pleasure, leave no path untaken.”
― Neil Gaiman, The Graveyard Book

This year 2013

has been demanding–

stamping it’s foot–


at the top of it’s lungs–

that I should face my life

and not look away–

not even for a moment.

I have faced my pain–

I’ve stared it down-

and looked directly

in the eye of many harsh truths.

And I’ve struggled with all my might,

mostly against my own self torment.

I have felt waves of grief

and self pity-

I have ridden the panic

train without a seat belt

and ended up derailed

and almost destroyed.

I have spent a lot of time this year

alone, stuck, frozen,

and sick with despair

and self loathing.

Unable to write or paint or relax.

And here is what I have learned.

1. Not to fear my fear.

2. Not to feel bad about feeling bad.

3. Not to be ashamed of my shame.

4. And I have everything I need.

And on this last day of the year

when people are celebrating

I am going to take a moment

to speak to those who are not.

If it has been a tough year for you–

and you think you have nothing to celebrate–

let me send you a message of hope.

You are brave and amazing and resilient and strong-

even if you don’t feel that way right now.

Even in the depths of your despair.

And if you are on the edge of a cliff

or some other steep and lonely place,

If you are looking into the abyss

of your own lonely heart,

let me tell you that I know

what that is like.

Be kind to yourself.

Be loving with yourself.

Forgive yourself.

Let yourself feel

whatever you feel.

And if you have a hole

inside you-

that you can not fill-

and you are angry

and afraid-

if you have a wound

that has never healed–

a mark that will not go away–

remember you are absolutely beautiful,

and your torn and tattered heart,

only makes you more so.

I like to think of the Japanese

idea of Wabi-sabi-

and the beauty of things

imperfect, impermanent, and incomplete.

Happy  Wabi Sabi New Year to you my kindred family.

I love you.

I have hope for you

even if you don’t right now.

I got this one.

You are going to feel happy and  stardust shiny  again.


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